I just can’t seem to get a grip on celibacy

I can honestly say I've done my absolute best but I still can't fucking get a goddamn grip on this shit and I feel like my spiritual growth is stagnating as a result (or crawling at a snail's pace).

I just get TOO HORNY, TOO ANGRY, TOO TOO f*king frustrated and borderline manic when I stop jacking off/fucking around for longer than 30 days….

The problem is you simply cannot achieve lvl 4 unless you can hold it in for 13 straight months – draw in that energy and store it in your LDT for…

I just can't seem to get a grip on celibacy